Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
yourstruly
Ern Chuen
Ex-Lasallian and RV High Year 1
Passionate, living and standing for Christ!!
Badminton, Christian gospel music, Family and Friends.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
-3:08 PM
Why Lord? Why? I tried to fight it, I really did, and yet. Why am I under such intense attack? And yet Lord. Your will be done in my life. If this is neccessary for me to grow more, then DO NOT remove it. I believe You. Thanks Daddy.
-10:42 AM
I found myself playing this song on the guitar. Simple chords, simple lyrics. Now, I am by no means a good singer-- in fact I'm a terrible singer. But when I was just singing this song in my room. Just me and God alone. When I was singing this song in my room, I found tears streaming down my face as the faces of my friends flash pass me. I see a broken and fatherless generation that needs Jesus, that needs the hope of a Saviour. Do you see it in their eyes? They pass you by everday, do you see the need for Jesus? Think of your friends right now. Do you start feeling desperate to bring them to Jesus? Time is short. Life can be over, just like that. A life is but a mist in the air, a flower fading. Time is running out. And everyday, I think it's time we look at what God has put into our hands, and just do the best we can. I saw a Hungry Ghost Festival celebration that celebrates the Festival of the 龙王. And people, youths, were holding this cage and moving around wildly--it is belief that the cage is moving on its on. And it just breaks my heart when i see this. People need the Lord. Your friends need the Lord. Your school needs the Lord. Your world needs the Lord. If this generation would rise up to take their place. No more ifs. Now is the time. Tell the world He lives. Tell the world the truth, and the truth shall set them free.
I'm not ashamed of the gospel Of your power, your love Saved by soul Now i'm alive in You
Sunday, October 28, 2007
-9:14 PM
"I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple."Isiaish 6:1 I saw the Lord lifted up in Ignyte, among our midst, moving, breaking chains and increasing annointing. Yup, Break Free worship experience was amazing. I saw chains and bondages right there break in the presence of God. As usual, such an amazing experience with Him at the altar. Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. When we finally entered into His presence beyond the veil, just one look at His glory and majesty will break the most seemingly unbreakable chains and completely realign your life. Break Free worship experience. Ignyte soaking in his presence. Ignyte breaking into a new season. What a sight.
Lord take me now way beyond the veil Where i can see you Where i can see you, Jesus Hold me now within Your arms of love I wanna be with You I wanna be with You
Saturday, October 20, 2007
-9:55 AM
Last week Thursday was prayer group meeting. Was so frustrated with myself after the meeting. Exerted myself so much while playing basketball I almost collapsed. It's funny, how you plan what to say beforehand and think you would be able to bring it forth fluently, passionately and make it affect the listener. But when the time comes, you just don't have the abillity. I was so frustrated with myself. Probably because there was a non-Christian and I screwed up in front of her. Yet, in the MOELC, I found myself on my knees during the 5min breaktime. My mind is now drawn to Paul the Apostle. He probabaly was unhappy with certain disabillities. Maybe he stuttered a lot. Maybe he always forgets what to say, maybe he just isn't fluent enough. Three times he pleaded with God, "If You take this thorn in my flesh away from me, how much more I can contribute to Your glory." You know what, God wasn't looking for a perfect speaker. He just wanted to find somebody. And He found Paul. When you submit yourself before God, you will be amazed how He can turn your weakness and use it for His glory. God did not remove the thorn of flesh. Instead He said, "My grace is sufficient, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Human weakness is the ideal oppurtinity for divine power to be displayed. You might listen to the voices telling you you're not good enough. Listen to the voice of Jesus.
May my weakness glorify Your power.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
-10:29 PM
Yup, Ps. Gary got married last week!! Congrats to him...the wedding was really funny! Yesterday was the final PSS session. It lasted for 2hrs, and I admit, it was fun. But there is a slight problem. Today was also suppose to be prayer group meeting. I thought that I had gone through the toughest moments when the prayer group was being set up. I thought that when we finally had our first meeting, "Yay!! It's now going to be smooth-sailing, God will move mightily and we will see this prayer grp multiply!" Wrong. It was not to be like this. You know that secondary school can be very busy. Mon and Thurs is 3rd lan day, tuesday and friday is CCA day, that means only Wednesday is free. wednesdays were always taken up by extra activities like remedials, PSS etc etc. It was impossible, really impossible, for us to meet up. Impossible. Week after week, discouragement after discouragement, the usual of "prayer group has to be cancelled because of this, or that...". It was disheartening. And when we do meet up, man, will I be disappointed. When we started off, we had a good number of members, probably 8 people. But when the meetings come, i would see 4 people turning up. And that's considered good. I've had a meeting where 2 people came. The worst thing was that it was the day before National Day, only 2 people were there to actually pray for our country. And now, for the last weeks of school, i want to share with the group my heart and, maybe, just maybe, ignyte passion in them. And yet, prayer group still has to be cancelled. Frustrated? Of course I'm frustrated. I am a small person. I do have my weaknesses, I do have "thorns in my flesh". You might feel like giving up now. You might ask, "God, are you there?" Well, He is there. But you will not always feel His presence, just know that He is there.I for one, feel so discouraged. But He is there. Yes, I am small and insignificant. But when you offer your life to him, when u dedicate ur whole being to HIm, He will take you as He finds you and multiply it for His glory.
Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as you willI surrender Take my fears and inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all to feed them all
I now realise, it does not matter how small or insignificant or unworthy I am. All i need to say is: "Here I am Lord. There's nothing in my hands, but take me and use me." God could use five loaves and two fishes to feed a multittude of tens of thousands of people. He could use a murderer to bring a nation out of slavery, He could use a cruel persecuting man to advance the Church, He could use a coward that denied Him thrice and build His Church on it. He could do the same for me and you. Yup, just give it all to HIm. I now know why i went through the hardships in the beginning. It was a preparation, a build-up of faith, for even harder things to come. I saw His faithfulness demonstrated during all my trials and discourgament. Even though now i am so frustrated, in the words of Tommy Tenny, "Every time you grow weary and frustrated with the painful pursuit of God's presence, rember that frustration is the address to which God sends the annointing." There is now, nothing in my hands. Yet Lord. Here I am, Send me.
"Listen. I gave you this vision. I have followed you through the setting-up of the prayer group. I have never left you. Who are you to doubt me now?"
Thursday, October 04, 2007
-5:09 PM
I'm finally posting. That could only mean one thing: EXAMS ARE OVER. Haha. Yup, charmaine, we made it through the exams alive. Though I screwed up on most of the papers. But still, I made it through. All praise to the great I AM, for being everything I need You to be during this exam period. Despite the exam period, the past two services were amazing. It was just the time God chose(which coincidentally was during the exam period) to confirm his destiny in me. Yup, I am being called to full-time ministry. Now, I still feel unsure and, well, inadaquete. "But the voice of truth tell me a different story. The voice of truth says 'Do not be afraid.'" All for His glory. The first glimpse I had of what God has in store for me was 10/9. The exact words of what I wrote in my journal during TAWG: "Don't know why, but now I sense God is calling me to full-time ministry." I shoved to this back of my head(sounds familiar?) Until just 2 weeks ago, during Vision Rally. I really thought this would be a ordinary service. I wasn't prepared for what God was about to do in my life. Ps. Margaret gave the call for full-time ministry. And even as she was giving the call, I was hesitating. "Am I just kidding myself?" And then God spoke to me, "Will you trade your dreams for Mine?" And I went out. Now I know that that day, my purpose was sealed in me. This song sorts of talked about the starting step into the point of no return. Usually, we are caught in the middle: Our dreams or His dreams? We live our life between the fire and the flame, we live our lifes between quiet contentment and desperation for more of Him. And if we choose to live a "middle" Christian life, well, we will be missing out big on the good that He has in stored for us.
"Somewhere in the Middle" by Casting Crowns Lyrics: Somewhere between the hot and the cold Somewhere between the new and the old Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be Somewhere in the middle, You’ll find me Somewhere between the wrong and the right Somewhere between the darkness and the light Somewhere between who I was and who You’re making me Somewhere in the middle, You’ll find me Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
(Chorus) Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle? Are we caught in the middle?
Somewhere between my heart and my hands Somewhere between my faith and my plans Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves Somewhere between a whisper and a roar Somewhere between the altar and the door Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more Somewhere in the middle You’ll find me Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
(Chorus)
Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You’re by my side Loving me even on these nights when I’m caught in the middle
When I read through my previous posts and journal entries, I just sense a burning in my heart. I see God moving, truly, in my life. And yet, I see many falls and mistakes. I see a truly intense spiritual battle. I once written, "I don't know why I'm under such intense spiritual attack." Now I know why. It is our destiny and inheritance that we war for. We fight for a broken world. Do not live an ordinary Christian life. Live as a warrior on fire for Him. I choose not to be caught in the middle. I choose to trade my dreams for His. It is this choice that we make that will make us just an ordinary Christian, or a history-maker.
"I sense God is telling me right now, 'Trade your dreams for mine, and watch what I will do in your life.'" 30/9/07 Journal Entry
